Sunday, August 31st

I am so proud of how far I have come. The day I chose to trust the Lord was also the day my life changed forever. During one of the craziest days of my life I surrendered to God. I knew my situation was bigger than me. I felt it.

There were so many times I could have quit.

There were so many times I could have shut down and acted miserable.

So many times I could have listened to the world instead of God.

There were so many times I questioned my own faith and I still trusted God.

There were so many days where I could not predict what tomorrow would look like.

So many days I felt so SO alone.

So many days of fighting doubt, guilt, and pain.

So many days of change that I could not understand.

And yet, I still chose optimism.

I chose strength.

I chose love.

I chose compassion.

I chose hope.

I chose understanding.

I chose patience.

I chose God.

I knew I could not begin to imagine what God was writing for me. In such a fast world where there are so many ways to escape changes and suffering… I embraced it all.

I surrendered because I knew God’s plan is better. I smiled during the struggles because I knew this was God telling me the good is yet to come.

I think this world teaches us to speed up, to run when suffering. And there is evil in this world. But God day to stay patient, to find faith in the fire. To work while we wait. I worked my butt off while I waited. I put my head down and looked ahead, not back. Sure there were times where I doubted, but I always persevered through those thoughts. I found faith in the loudest fires. And God DID deliver in the end.

God. Did. Deliver.

I found strength in God.

I found fearless energy.

I found patience.

I found hope.

I can do hard things. I can get through days that seem impossible.

I can turn the world off and tune into God.