August 21st, 2025

Some days I wake up and feel like I haven’t been doing enough to reach my goals. Other days I wake up and feel like I have been doing too much in the wrong direction.

But then I sit here and realize none of it matters anyways. Everything I create, the art I write, is truly for me anyways. I can’t move in the wrong direction unless I am not moving for myself.

This world is very good at making me think I need to compare. My quality of self comes from comparing what I do, say, and look like to someone who “does it all best.” Celebrities who are loved by everyone are the people that do these things best.

That’s why art and creation is everything to me. It humbles, it tells us no art is better than the next. All art is self expression and perceived differently by everyone who absorbs it. Art puts everyone on the same playing field.

If I sit here and write to make it make sense to the person reading I wouldn’t be expressing the confusion in my head. It is truly such a hard thing to do. It is hard to just create something that you know will be shared and to be able to still make it unique to you. That’s why I don’t care anymore.

I don’t care anymore if what I write makes any sense.

When I do care about that, it causes me to not create enough. To quit.

When I do care about that, it causes me to write to much about nonsense. To try and impress.

I express my true self, my true chaotic mind to inspire authenticity. To break away from perfection.

Perfection is a joke our society has covered up as what we need to achieve. But the truth is all celebrities who have achieved fame have learned how to express themselves through their form of art. Most really did do it for themselves. Us, society, the media has created the illusion that this is perfection. The artists say that it is just their art.

We must keep creating.

Creating in a way that is just true to our individual self.

No worry of fame, no stress to impress.

Creativity has been too tied to fame and perfection that it is being abandoned.

When I wake up and think about if I am doing too much or if I am not doing enough. Or when I wake up and compare myself and feel less than another I realize something.

I realize I am not expressing enough as my authentic self. The best medicine but the hardest to find is true self expression.

Detailed to your life.

I think creativity, I think art is the antidote.

Creativity keeps us all on the same playing field. The more raw self expression in this world, the stronger the society.

The more creativity we absorb, the more we create. The more we learn. The better we become.